Now & Then

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Beauty surrounds me.
The gentle current splashes up against the shore.
Pain ebbs and flows as the sand is washed away.
Pieces of my heart have drifted out to sea,
and yet peace abides in the losing.
Now, I see the treasure that I had.
Then, I felt the joy.
Now, I look for meaning.
Then, I knew it all.
I felt so secure,
so blindly blissful.
Yet even then I didn’t trust
that it would stay.
Words pile up like fallen leaves.
I fall into them, clutching my heart to my chest.
Dare I let go and say goodbye
to yesterday again?
Do I take the chance to live now?
Or do I keep clinging to what I had back then?